Chapter 5.3

Lexie

As Uncle Beau was doing my hair, thoughts of Mommy’s sad face made me H-O-T angry. Like those bees that swirled around me when I threw a rock at their nest. How the heck did I know it was a hive? Looked like a dirt clod hanging in the tree to me. Uncle Beau was like that. He didn’t know he was playing with an angry bee.

He patted my shoulder and said, “All done, baby girl.”

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“Uncle Beau?”

“What, sweet thing?”

“What would have happened if Daddy wouldn’t have found you first and found Mommy? Would he be with her now instead of you?”

He didn’t say anything for a while but then said, “I-I don’t know…”

“Mommy is very sad about that. She cried about Daddy last night.”

“She did?”

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I nodded then got up, crossing my arms. I didn’t want to make him sad, but he was hurting Mommy. “You and Daddy are like the mean girls at school. They always laugh in a together circle and they won’t let anyone in. That makes everyone else sad, looking at them.”

I heard him let out a bunch of air.

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Next, all he did was shuffle out of my room. He didn’t talk to me like usual. He must have been so mad at me!

Worry darts shot me in the heart. Why did I have to say anything? I wanted to hammer nails over my mouth to keep it shut. But I was so upset. When that happened, even snotty Emery Straud couldn’t stop my mouth from flying open.

Now my uncle hated me. What if Daddy was going to hate me, too?

*****

August

It was a frustrating day today. Sometimes my job got so monotonous. And I had to find creative ways to snoop. I didn’t have the huge data bases I used to when I was with the FBI. A lot of it was just neverending poking around on the internet with nothing to show.

My muscles were so tense by the time I got home, I just wanted to be with Beau. I spotted him in the living room and pulled him to me, whispering, “I’ve got you now. Want to meet me in the bedroom? I need some Beau-time.”

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He leaned into me and chuckled. “I’d love to, but…”

“But what?” I cooed, swaying with him and rubbing his ass. He liked that normally.

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“Baby, we need to talk.”

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*****

I didn’t like the sound of that. But I didn’t say anything to him until we got to our bedroom. He pulled into himself like he did when he was agitated. Damn. What the hell happened?

“What’s going on?” I asked.

“It’s Briar. Lexie said she cried about you last night. She said she’s very upset the way things have turned out.”

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I blinked. “That’s coming from Lexie who is our number one anti-fan. Come on, Beau. Are you going to listen to a kid? She fantacizes that Briar and me are going to get married.”

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“It’s not just that. I’ve seen it, too. Briar acts like she’s depressed. Her face is so melancholy. I can’t take it anymore, August. I hate this.”

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His words boiled my blood. “So, what the hell are you suggesting? That we break up because Briar is depressed? That’s bullshit.”

He flung his hands up in the air. “Whoa, August. You don’t have to get so mad. We’re just talking here.”

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“But answer me this,” he went on, “what would have happened if you’d found Briar first? Would you two be married right now? Lexie has a point.”

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I pulled at my hair. “I can’t believe what I’m hearing from you. It’s like high school all over again. Are you really going to get jealous about your sister even though you’re my fiance? Even though we’ve been living together for over a year? That’s so fucking out of line, Beau, it pisses me off.”

“Then answer the damn question, August.”

“What fucking question?”

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“What would have happened if you’d found Briar first?”

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God, I was so mad I couldn’t see straight. Sitting back, I chewed on my nails, fuming. He didn’t get it. I loved him. I’d always loved him. The reason I got with Briar back then was because I was running away from the gay relationship. It was so new and strange to me. And unfortunately, I didn’t go with what I’d wanted to do in the first place.

And now I had Lexie. I was happy about that. But it didn’t mean I loved Briar in the same way I loved Beau. No way. But how could I ever convince him?

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We both just sat there not saying anything to each other. It felt like the room was blazing with hot air–the tension was so thick between us.

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Finally, I rubbed the growing headache that started to pound my forehead and answered, “You just want to think I’d jump at the chance at being with Briar if you weren’t around, but it isn’t true. And it’s not fair to me.”

“What if I told you I don’t believe you? What if I know deep down you would have married her because of Lexie, if nothing else. It’s the kind of person you are, August.”

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“And so where does that answer leave us? Huh, Beau?”

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*****

Lexie

Daddy and Uncle Beau were fighting. And all because of my dumb mouth. I could hear them yelling angry things at each other even though I couldn’t understand what they were saying. Both of them had very deep voices and it was so scary sounding.

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I just wanted to go back to the way things were before I said that mean thing to Uncle Beau. Do a do over.

What if Uncle Beau and Daddy don’t love each other anymore like Carlie Hamlin’s parents who got a divorce and it was all my fault? What if Daddy didn’t like me because of it?

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I’d have to go back to the catlady’s house forever.

And I’d miss my daddy and Uncle Beau so much, I definitely would have a heart attack and die before my ten year old birthday.

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27 thoughts on “Chapter 5.3”

  1. Ahhh I had a feeling poor Lexi would say something she’d regret! 😦

    I feel for all of them right now… this situation is so messy for everyone involved, and it seems like there’s really no easy “solution”.

    I’m wondering if August and Beau will end up leaving after all. They might think some separation would make things easier on Briar and Lexie… but I have a feeling it will only make things worse and make Lexie feel like she’s being abandoned…

    We’ll see though, I know 😛 Excited for the next chapter! ^_^

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    1. The whole family is in turmoil. Hopefully, they will come together and find a solution.

      Glad you’re excited for the next chapter! One more in the childhood years and then TEEN SCENE! 😉

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  2. Noooo, I don’t want Lexie to go back to the catlady’s house. 😭 (Okay, she probably won’t, but still…!)

    Poor kid. What a confusing, stressful family arrangement, especially when she wants her mom and dad to be together so badly. Uncle Beau’s a sweetheart to her, but he’s still standing in the way of her dream…

    I hope August and Beau are able to work through this–but I also hope Briar finds happiness. After all this time, she really deserves it, and maybe it’s too painful to be so close to her brother’s happiness and the father of her child. And I want Lexie to be surrounded by happy family…

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    1. Wah…that dirty catlady house…(there’s muddy animal prints all over the place…love that house, though.)

      It is such a confusing arrangement, especially since August and Briar get along so well, Lexie can’t help but dream. I so agree that Briar deserves happiness. Hopefully, she’ll find it (along with the whole fam.)

      I hope you get your wish for that happy family…(le sigh…)

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  3. Now things are all shook up and Lexie is feeling terrible. 😢 I feel bad for her. She wants everyone to be happy, especially her mother. I loved her thought process! So much like an 8 or 9 year old.

    I hope August has a heart to heart with Briar to get these feelings out in the open so the three of them can deal with them one way or another. I suspect he will try. Curious to see how she reacts. I don’t feel like we know her as well as Beau other than she puts the needs of everyone else above her own without a second thought, no matter the cost to her.

    I am not surprised that’s how Beau reacted. He’s always been super moody with a giant chip on his shoulder. Sad thing is Lexie was right. Had August found Briar first, he would have married her. The thing is, that didn’t happen. And ‘what if’ is a terrible game to play. 😕

    I almost wonder if Beau wishes in some tiny dark place in the back of his mind that they never found Briar. But he would never admit it to himself because he does love his sister. He was much happier the way things were with him and August before they found her. Jealousy does not look good on him and it’s hurting their relationship.

    And finally….love that August is growing his hair again. ❤️ He reminds me of a softer version of Jackson.

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    1. Aww…I was remembering how uncertain I was of my actions as a nine year old. (And my kids at this age. My muse for Lexie is my youngest daughter. I wrote blog posts about her at this age.)

      Great idea about August having a heart to heart (next chapter). Beau is too emotional about it, so he wouldn’t want to talk to his sister…better to leave August to deal with it (at least in his mind.)

      I believe you’re right (and Beau and Lexie…) August WOULD have married Briar in a heartbeat if it was the other way around. And he would have been happy! But that wasn’t fate and honestly, the feelings with Beau were stronger because of their friendship as well as what they went through together. August knows this.

      You could be right about Beau, but I think he was extremely happy to find his twin. It’s just he’s always been insecure about his sister since August seemed to love her for so long while Beau pined away. Seeing Lexie as a source of conflict is very frustrating to him, but he wouldn’t trade the situation even though it sucks. He wishes Lexie would give up this dream.

      And doesn’t August look so much like Jackson? Sadly, I think those genes stop here. Lexie looks a lot like Mama… 😉 (But I don’t mind the Blackwells mingling…Lexie is a combo of Siobhan and Briar with a smidge of August (those Pongan lips. Ha!) )

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  4. Oh snap!
    Lexie feels like such a *real* little girl; acting on impulses she doesn’t understand and then instantly regretting a fallout she didn’t know she didn’t want 😦

    It’s not her fault, of course, that Beau is highly emotional and has lingering insecurities… and maybe this was something that’s been simmering in the back of his mind since Briar’s return? Maybe it was waiting for *any* excuse to rear up and take over his sensibility? If not for Lexie, it probably would have surfaced again eventually anyhow, insecurities like that always do!

    I feel bad for August (and Beau); it’s so frustrating! /frets
    How do they forward from here?

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    1. Yeah…you better believe this wasn’t the first time Beau thought about this scenario–what if Briar was found first? And typical Beau, he’s insecure. Maybe when Briar is happily married (and he’s happily married), he won’t feel like this, but he did need to air out this thought–probably sooner than he did. Talking through problems is the best way to solve them and so…Beaugust will talk.

      And poor little Lexie–going on impulses a lot and feeling badly later. She just wants everyone to be happy (especially her mom!!!)

      Next chapter, you will see how they do move forward.

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  5. Hee hee…she definitely is…but will she feel all that bad if she splits them up?

    You’re right…Beau DID have this question in the back of his mind. Too bad he didn’t express his doubts and insecurities to August before all of this, so August could reassure him without fighting, but…he’s Beau doing it Beau’s way. 😛

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  6. 😥 Poor August and Beau. I feel a little sorry for our heiress. She didn’t really meant to say that so harshly. 😦 Everything is just so messy. Maybe Briar can find someone to be happy with. Is she with someone? Wild Theory: Briar found out she’s having another kid from another ex (could happen in the time between last gen and first chapter) and doesn’t know how to tell Beaugust or Lexie… Just a theory…

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    1. Lexie is not happy…and the whole house is not happy! 😦

      I love your thought about her being preggers and she doesn’t want to complicate things and tell anyone. Ha!

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  7. I knew little Lexie was going to say something she’d regret, but she’s young. It’s bound to happen a lot. Kids can be mean because they speak their truth no matter what. As for Beau… I get him being upset at the whole Briar situation, but he shouldn’t have taken it out on August. Honestly I think all the adults need to sit down and have a major talk about things. Maybe even with a mediator in the room. This situation sucks.

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    1. She sure did…stuck her foot in her mouth. Now everything seems upsidedown to her. 😦

      Kids do not think before they speak. A LOT!

      And Beau…he’s very emotional and had probably been thinking about this ever since they found Briar but just didn’t want to bring it up. Now, he feels he has to. Of course, he didn’t do it in a good way. He did it the Beau-way.

      Let’s hope some adult talking will happen (next chapter!)

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  8. Oh the feels!! Thanks a lot, Lexie. Now your daddy and uncle got into an argument and their sweet teeth turned sour. Kind of expected her to say such a thing to Beau. She’s young and all.

    Beau should’ve known better than to direct his anger towards the situation to August. The adults should organize a meeting and talk about this matter before it gets worse.

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    1. Wah…scary daddies argument…but hey, I’m sure they’ll make up. ❤

      There should be a meeting of some sort. We'll see next chapter! 🙂

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  9. I’m sorry I’ve got to be the one who says this.. I secretly want August and Briar to be together because he protected her when they were teens and all that junk and I just really
    Love them together. I was never able to understand Beau and I don’t care for him because of that.

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    1. Hey, don’t apologize for being a Brigust shipper. There are many out there (even if they feel silenced now).

      It would make the family dynamic much easier. That’s for sure!

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      1. Thanks for replying lol I felt a little black sheepy. In my legacies I often have my friends decide heirs and their partners and stuff and if I don’t like them together I just go with it and it sucks because once I had a storyline picked which required one of my posh sims with a street sim but is that what Ana picked? Nope, then again I love that save to pieces so eh! I do like Beau but I just wasn’t able to latch onto the ship like I normally do. I read the challenge rules so I feel a bit sadistic for wanting what I want to happen lol.

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        1. Hee hee! Well…I won’t give anything away. (Don’t feel guilty! But I try to do things in a way that readers will least expect…although that doesn’t often work! Ha!) ❤

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